I hated the pistol. The agency had decided, that for our own good, and because some "upwardly promotable" officer had dropped her Browning Hi Power and it somehow "went off", we would all be using the new generation S&W 5906.
When I got my issued weapon, I think I threw up a little. This was NOT a pistol for killing. It was designed to make even the thought of using it difficult. After all...a dead cop was far better for the chief than a dead blood or crip gang member.
I drove to Long Beach Uniform after a 12 hour shift to buy my own 5906 and have the legend himself...the patron saint of Smith and Wesson, Steve Deladio work it over for me.
The trigger needed to be, in the words of one of my mentors, one officer CD Smith...."hostage rescue accurate". Steve smoothed out the DA so a Colt Python would be jealous of it, and the SA was what you would think just right on a tuned 1911. And Steve managed to "malfunction" the magazine safety disconnect in a way that it looked like normal wear rather than a blatant policy violation.
When I took it home, a Cratex wheel removed all those offending points and edges that the desk warriors never notice. I reduced the size of the trigger, and changed the springs. All stuff that I could claim was within policy.
The pistol now had an 8 pound DA, a 2 pound SA and an inoperative magazine safety.
I carried that pistol from 1989 to 1995 when I convinced the racist cocaine-using chief that a Glock was double action only...and I put the 5906 in the safe forever.
This was the pistol that was with me on the beach when I killed the active shooter...and at the 7-11 against the three armed robbers. And it was in my holster during my time in Special Enforcement when I shot the home invader rapist in the parking lot of LAPD's Parker Center.
Alot of history...but I still hate it as a symbol of institutional compromise foisted on the guys that were on the point of the police spear, for the mistakes the underachiever class who because of gender, race, or whatever quota they were filling, could do no wrong.
Harsh? Maybe...but such are my memories of that era. Harsh like the 5906 that I spent so much effort taming. The pistol is also a symbol of how an overachiever can circumvent obstacles placed in his path.